Yep! It's true! Nine years ago today Mama Bear and I decided to take the old wedding vows, and, let me tell you, these past nine years felt like an eternity.
I'm just kidding!
They've been great...for me at least. I can't say for sure how she feels about the whole ordeal, but I like to think that she feels the same as I do.
Anyway, every Oct. 18 since 2002 I like to sit back and reflect. I try to consider what my life would have been like with out the woman of my dreams, and I like to try and think of all the great things that we have given to each other. But, there's a problem when I do.
Firstly, I can't imagine my life without Mama Bear!
Secondly, when I think on all of the things that my darling wife and I have together and all the sacrifices that we have made for everything we have, I start to realize just how selfish I really am.
You see, she's the one that does all the sacrificing. All I have to do is sit back and relax! She's the one that has to deal with having a sick husband who has never had a decent job. She's the one that worked so I could get my undergraduate degree, and then when I did receive it I ended up searching for a job for 8 months only to find a crappy job that paid just over minimum wage. Then I ended up leaving that job to work at a retail store.
Yeah, it is safe to say that I have never really contributed to our household finances, and I feel horrible for it!
But, there is more to life than wealth!
Unfortunately, I don't contribute to much of anything else either! I am grouchy, I'm lazy, and I'm not good at anything. Well, that's not true. I'm a pretty kick ass dad! But, other than that, I don't have a lot going for me. So, there is always a part of me that is wondering and waiting for my wife to realize that she can do better.
But, at about the time I start worrying, I start thinking of the few things I did contribute in our relationship. Well, of the one thing anyway. The most important "thing" of all, our son. With out me he wouldn't be, and a world with out him would be seriously lacking something, something big and beautiful.
I can't help but see grand things in his future!
Sure, now he seems to have all the tendencies of a perverted old man who poops in his draws and goes elbow deep down any woman's shirt he can, but that doesn't mean he isn't on the path to growing into a wonderful man who is capable of doing/achieving just about anything he sets his mind to.
That gets me thinking, and I think this every morning when I wake up, which is why it takes me a few more seconds to get out of bed then my wife and boy.
I'm thinking that I am a lucky guy!
I have two wonderful people living with me that I love with all my heart.
If only everyone could be so lucky!
Happy Anniversary Mama bear! I love you so much and look forward to waking up next to you every morning for all the years I have yet to live. I hope that you are as happy as I am even if I don't express it very well!